I spend a lot of time on social media. One day, I logged over 5 hours. My eyes are peeled for signs of addiction, as a result of working in that field. “Do I have a social media addiction?” I wondered. Maybe I wasn’t chugging bottles of alcohol or crushing pills, but I wanted to reclaim my days. My calligraphy set was collecting dust. I hadn’t read for pleasure in weeks, even with being on spring break. So I downloaded an app called Digital Detox, which conquered my screen like a large, green dictator.
You’re allowed to name which apps you actually want to use, so I added Gmail. I kept Spotify (because exercise without music is like toast without avocado). Maps was very necessary, as was WordPress (clearly). Then there were the obvious apps, like Messenger and WhatsApp. That was it, though. And just to make my life harder, I blocked social media on my computer. Things I would miss: my friend sending me memes, and my favorite creator, Secora. What if her baby grew in the five days I’d be offline? Oh, and there’s a random couple whose lives I’m irrationally invested in.
But I was about to gain a lot. Or so I hoped.
I started the day with a trip to my practicum site to pick up the charger that I left. Apparently this was in vain, because everyone ended up being on zoom today. Then I was off to a doctor’s appointment.
A fun fact about me is that I hate getting my blood drawn. Just knowing it’s happening makes me nauseous, let alone looking at the vials. But it’s one of those things that all adults do. Was this adulting? I thought, looking at the bandaid and wondering why adults don’t get stickers. After that was done, I went home and set up an appointment with my dissertation chair. There were a few more things on my schedule.
I went to the gym. I did hip thrusts, which I always have to talk myself into, because my hips are a million times stronger than my arms. As a result, I have to recruit whichever gym guy looks the most capable, so I’m not moving the 45 plates all on my own. But I did the exercise! I’ll let you know if I am able to walk downstairs tomorrow. I also stopped at the library to return the old books that I checked out and to pick out (many) new ones.
Later in the day, I helped my brother sign up for summer college classes. His gratitude surprised me. We don’t see each other that often due to our opposite schedules, but I like the person he’s becoming. He loves cooking, and ok, maybe he wolfs down three portions, but he usually makes enough extras for the whole family. He also talks to me about working out, and I continue to be impressed with how easy it is for guys to make “gains” in contrast to girls.
I had another health appointment where ironically, I ended up needing to reference a YouTube video. Except I remembered that everything was blocked, so I ended up making do. To end off the day, I worked on a worker’s comp case and reviewed records. One of the things I noticed today was how much time there was. Time to make home cooked food. Time to fully immerse myself in whatever I did, instead of doing it with one finger on my phone. I noticed myself feeling lighter. The stress that I had been feeling lately lessened somewhat.
Another development is that my evenings would end earlier. I used to go on my phone even in bed. So I guess I’m going to just sleep? Weird! I’m liking this so far.